Monique
I am truly sorry for your loss. Although I did not know your loved one personally, my heart goes out to you during this very difficult time. In times like this I have found comfort in God's promises recorded at Revelation 21:4 & John 5:28,29, where it is promised that sickness & death will be done away with and that our loved one is in God's memory and we will be able to see them again. These promises may seem unrealistic because of what we experience now, but I hope that knowing our loving Heavenly Father longs to do these things (Job 14:14,15) can bring you some comfort until these promises are fulfilled.
Sincerely,
Monique