T.B.
I am very sorry for the loss of your dear loved one. The death of a love one can cause our hearts great pain. It is so commendable of you to endure what you are going through in this rough time of your life. It is a good thing that God's word promises that life will not always be like this. In Revelation 21:4,"(God) will wipe out every tear from thier eyes and death will be no more. Neither will mourning nor outcry nor pain be anymore. The former things have passed away." Stay strong and hang in there because better times are ahead.